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[Sep. 7th, 2004|12:31 pm] |
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Alright yeah so I know I have been gone for a long while but that is okay becuase I have been rather busy as of late. So yeah I got a job finally. I work over at Automotive Basic Care on Elliot and Mcqueen. Basically I'm what's called a GS, if you don't know what that means.... I'll tell you. General Service, I look at the cars tires, change oil, fill the air pressure, top off all fluids in the car, change broken lights, transmission shit and other stuff that I either learn to do or have to find out how to do on my own, heh. But it's a pretty good job I used to make good money until my hours got cut, so I'm gonna have to start working where I can and get in all that extra time when I'm not busy becuase friggen it's a BIG pay cut and I need a lot of that money now. BECAUSE, I can drive now, for the past couple of weeks, which is awsome. I just don't have my own vehicle that I can take where I want to. I have the old SUV but that's only to go to work and school which is over at CGC. But I really like to drive, when I borrow my moms car I usually take the cd player and blast the shit out of it, so fun. I know, I don't have a sound system so it's not as fun as it could be. And don't say I'm queer because I like to drive, it's all new for me, so of course it's fun. Bitches. But yeah, now I am taking college classes which I had to pay for by myself. Which I thought was total bullshit but hopefully they will help me pay for the Musicians Institute, becuase if not there's no way in hell I'll be able to afford living expenses and college all in the same shot. Speaking of which, I went to MI the other day in Hollywood. I friggen loved in, I can't wait to live there. There's like these 3 goth stores on Hollywood Blvd which looked friggen awsome. And I kid you not there was at least like 10 different tatto and peircing place all within the same couple of blocks we had to go from the Freeway to the school, lol. But yeah, I liked hollywood a lot, plus that school rocks. I got free breakfast and then a free guitar lesson and while we watched people on stage they gave us pizza from this lil place nextdoor which was pretty damn good. But 2 years to wait to go there is too damn long. I am gonna need a lot more credit hours to get there in 2 years if I wanna leave here right after I get my AA. Which is really shitty because school is fucking expensive. Plus all the books and gas money, essh. But whatever, I'll manage. Always do. Also on Thursday I went shopping by myself with my own money for the first time, by myself..*coughs* But I still went! I went and go my labret and eyebrow peirced. Then I Went over to shirts and things, got a nice fucking Dimmu Borir textile poster and some awsome shirts. Then that's when my life took a shit when my truck broke down and had to call my mom to come pick me up, she fucking started crying saying "You're not my michael anymore" I was like "WTF?" but whatever, she accepts me now. I think it was only after I took out the labret peircing becuase that shit was fucking annoying. Rubbing on my teeth and catching on the back of my teeth when I talked. Didn't like it. But I kept the eyebrow one. So they are barely starting to talk to me and act like normal again, not that I fucking care, only reason I did was becuase she wouldn't let me drive her car. So *shrugs*. But yeah, that's what I been doing, I know you all care so much...but, I just thought i'd give ya the heads up on why I haven't been around lately. Just school, work and everything in between. Also trying to work in guitar and friends at the same time. >.< Ohh well, things will work out eventually. Peace |
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| Lucifers Kindred |
[Jul. 16th, 2004|03:50 pm] |
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So folks I haven't updated in a days age, things have been kinda crappy lately but ya know at least they haven't gotten any worse. I still need to get my liscense and my permit, I need to get a job, which I will probably find either at Target or MCI, I still need to find a friggen girlfriend and I need to start my program that I wanted to start that Mike Hoover gave me. I've been slacking off a lot since the end of graduation but, whatever. I had to go to California for a while becuase my great grandmother died and I stayed there for a couple of weeks. Had to see some of the family and had to see what was going on with all of them. My cousin Brendan who used to be huskier than I am has dropped so much weight he looks rather sickly from it, my cousin Robert gauged his ears and got a labret peircing. We really have grown far apart from one another, they don't even accept me as family basically. They know my name, they know our past, but when I go to see them they don't even look at me. That's the way it is with all of my cousins though. I mean we were at my grandmothers funeral and I sat with one of them and the only reason he shook my hand during the peace offering was becuase there was no on else that was free to do so. So he gave in and shook my head. So whatever, they're gonna be really suprised when I'm done dropping weight and buffing up, with all my peircings and tats, they're gonna think I'm even more different than I already am. But ohh well. I went to Spiderman the other day, was a fucking awsome movie, best thing I've seen in a long ass time. As well as Dodgeball, saw that the other day too, was incredibly funny but fucking no one else was laughing besides me and Rj every once in a while they'd be like "Hehe..." but that was it while me and Rj could barely breath from the fucking laughing we were doing. I've been waiting for my dread locks, my hair is touching my shoulders down and it's pretty friggen long so hopefully I'll be able to get them soon, unless I decide against it and get long ass hair like the dude from evergrey, lol, that would be sweet. I only touch my guitar now every once in a while, I've been playing Ragnarok for a while now it's basically been the only thing I have that doesn't drive me up the wall. For a while now I've been depressed and not becuase of recent events just, there's nothing to look forward too, there's nothing in my life. I have no one, I have a couple of friends but it's just another type of need that I require and I can't have it for some reason. Sara and I started talking again, she IM'd me, or it was her brother, or whatever, but we are talking again, it's really hard. I mean, yeah I still have some hate in my heart for her because of all that happened and the shit that went on, but I can't help but still feel those old memories and feelings that we used to share. So when we talk it's really hard and I have to watch what I say to her. So that about sums it all up, no chick, a few close friends, no job, no car, no liscence, ...we'll see what happens. |
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| Midnights Requiem |
[Jul. 15th, 2004|02:59 pm] |
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Alright so friggen today I was dreaming about friggen Michaela. I don't know why but I had this crazy dream where like we were at the Graduation party at school and the bands were playing and what not. Don't ask me how I knew the set up it's just that crazy shit that you can't explain. So what happened was I Was sitting down at the table with my friends eating pizza and buffalo wings and Julia comes up and goes. "You know Michaela is really mad at you since you haven't called her since last week." and I was like "Really...what'd she say?" Julia tells me "I think you should go and talk to her, she wanted me to bring you over there." So I went and walked with Julia over to Micheala and she was sitting on this circular cement block thing in the middle of a park next to an elementary school. And the thing is with me shit happens but in the dreams the scenery always changes to a place or time I've been somewhere so it's kinda funky, I was in the Orange County Park since she used to go there too I think, back in California. So like, she tells me that she was upset with me not calling and that we really have to talk. All of a sudden the teachers come outside and start cussing us out and we start throwing our beer cans at them and killing them. Out of no where I pull out his katana and start flying, masacre'ing these old folks. Then the lil kids started crying and the moon was like shinning down like crazy and I Was by some lake with her and she was all dressed up in this sexy lil outfit and I Was in this goth shit with a cloak. So weird. But then I woke up after that. Kinda crazy but I thought I'd tell ya people. My mind is crazy hehe. |
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| Lament of the Unborn Childre' |
[Jul. 14th, 2004|09:15 pm] |
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So for the past couple weeks I've still just been drinking a lot and playing guitar. Everything's been kinda weird and confusing lately. I did however go to Weazil's party and that was cool, drank a bit and watched the Matrix with Dan since he never saw the second one, poor bastard is very depreived, he hasn't even seen the 3rd one...tsk tsk. Weazil gave me some passes for Dream Palace so if he ever goes I'll go with him but if not I'll have to walk in as a newbie and figure out things for myself. I still have to get him his present so that I don't feel like an asshole since he got me graduation shit. I talked to Sara yesterday for about 3 hours just about what happened and our past. Supposedly she wants to be friends with me and start talking again like we used to. I make her laugh and I'm "Nice" and shit so she likes that about me. We'll see what happens as I go through these steps once more. Weazil sent me this creepy ass song by Fantomas called Rosmary's Baby. It's pretty whicked. I sent it to some of my friends today and they were like all creeped out by it. I wish I could have that effect on people, I know I scare them right now, but just to look at them or talk and they are just utterly mortified by the fact that I am who I am and they can't deal with it. Jen and I fought for a while the other day as well, but things are fixed once more, thank God. Friggen I didn't even know what was going on since I've been away for a while so when I came back, things were kinda fucked up. But we patched everything up again and we are cool. Rj might wanna date Chelle again or something, I really don't know what's going on with him. He's always got some hair raising ideas about how life should be, hopefully he'll figure things out and just be happy with her from now on. MEanwhile I'm still waiting for my chance at life to have that solice and empathy for another that I could at least share part of my lonley life with. So Rj came over today, we were gonna play some Zelda and shit as well as take pics of us for Judgeme.net but unfortuantly my mother took the camera with her and Rj had to go to work shortly after. So then after he left, I sat back down at the computer, logged him out of all the shit he gets into and started talking to Sara again, she was there doing her online homework so I shared some stories with her and just kept her from being bored while she was trying to take a break from school work. I learned some songs today from Sinergy, Megadeth, In Flames and some other shit that I was just dicking around with ,but ohhh well. Hopefully I'll get them down as good as they sound and figure out how to make me better. I'll catch up with you people later. If I left anything out please tell me. |
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| Reflections of the Jester |
[Jul. 7th, 2004|12:58 am] |
So I really don't remember what the hell or when the hell I last did anything on this friggen thing. I've basically been kinda busy with graduation and all. My life has changed a great deal as of rescent. First off my grandparents came and visited that last week and I had to justify myself a whole hell of a lot to my family in my plans for the future, such as going to Junior College and then off to MI. I am not like a one of my family members, they always never understand the choices I wanna make, the things I am into or the kind of person that I am. I'm fucking respectful as hell to the people I consider to be worth the value of the time given, and I don't take advantage of women, most important things in life and I make sure to practice my gentlemanism to a T. So after that, all my family left just this morning, I'm kinda glad, becuase now I don't have to feel the obligation of having to cater to them being they don't like anything I really do in this house, they just kinda tolerate it to a point and let it fly. After Graduation we were supposed to go to the school but I thought, you know, it's a school function, people at my school don't like me, they fear me, they don't want anything to do with me, so why not go to my friends house where he knows me, he will accept me and my friends there and we can get plastered, lez' move this bus. Apparently my mom has finally realized I am more than what I seem to be and can take on some level of maturity, so she let me go to the party, dropped off Chris and RJ with me and we went inside to start the adventure. I met Drew's dad formally being I haven't seen him in a couple years, and also drew's older brother Matt who is really fucking awsome. Drew had 2 bitches there who were just drunk off their fucking asses after the last 10 mins of being there, they were already waisted, but don't let that fool you, they fucking drank the night away and after that, they just kept on getting bombed and friggen blasted by drinking more and more. The next day they felt that shit like a heart attack. This other dude that was there named Matt, a metal head of the old school days was really awsome. He stood around talking with me all night smoking cigars and drinking out of his bottle of Vodka. I talked to that dude about every friggen band that popped into our minds, and we just enjoyed eachothers company. Rj had about 2-3 beers and some Vodka and after that, it was over for him. This really hot chick was there that he knew, apparently he tried to hook up with her in the past but you know how that goes, Rj tries to hook up with every good looking chick, lol. So he was done for. Chris was being Straight Edge that night and he had a good time. I didn't care if he drank or not, I tried to get him a lil more comfortable with at least having a first beer amongst friends but, he said no and that's his choice. I just hope he had a good time at the party. So after getting trashed and the other fags from the party broke off. Myself, Drew, Chris, and the two matts all stayed up, then it was down to 4 when Drew went to try and score action from the really drunk chick with the hot ass. So Denny's accomidated our drunken slobbering over the tables and gave us water and coffee. After we ate our breakfast and talked about the dorks at the party, Chris started feeling the effects of staying up the night and we had to go home. Rj came back to my place since he was too tired or wtf ever and he crashed here until about 12, then I kicked his ass out and he went home. That day was VERY...VERY long, so I went to Harry Potter twice, once with the family and once with Jenna, Dan, Chris and Jeff (The Magician). It was an alright movie, the first time I Was kinda out of it being I could barely stay awake even after the 2 drinks of a tripple expresso from Starbucks, then it was over to the Chandler fashion for Jenna's friends and everything, we watched it again. Jeff drives like friggen crazy, but he has good handle over his machine so I didn't mind, I just kicked back and relaxed. AFter having a good night rest it was time for drinking yet again. Some friends of mine came over after I had went out to dinner, for some graduation thing, my mom told me at the last minute that it wasn't just for her friends but that since I graduated I could have people come over too. So I got Rj, Jenna, Ashley, Weazel and Sean to come over. We had some snacks and they enjoyed themselves while WEazel swam and we all just kinda chilled and talked. It was good. After everyone left and I got some Grad money, Sean came back over while taking Kelly home and we drank off the Smirnoff my mom had in the fridge. We sat outside from 1 AM until 5 AM. Was a beautiful night, we talked and caught up about everything that we haven't been able to for a long time. Listened to some good ass music and then just crashed out on the sofa. I'm really glad Sean can drink way better than Rj, or else I'd have to have nursed him back to health again, it was crappy, but Sean is awsome so I didn't have to worry about him. We talked of women and life, the great world that awaits us and people. So I woke up to find Sean had a lil bit of a hang over but ya know, it's not all that bad, I laughed a bit but he got better so I Wasn't worried. I took a shower and got ready to go to Colie's house to teach her some guitar. It was really awsome, her family is fucking funny as all hell. I don't think they knew I enjoyed the company there and understood their jokes and all, but I did, and It wasn't as bad as Colie thought I took it. Just, they're new to me and with new people I'm rather quiet until I'm either plastered or I just finally get comfortable around them. She's a really cool chick and so is her friend Alyssa. I laughed a lot with them today, they have a fucking awsome Sharpie' dog at their house, it doesn't listen to a damn person at that house but she's still cool. So I hope Colie starts practicing guitar and all, so that I don't have to go back and reteach everything. But hopefully she will become a good pupil ;-). So after I ate their food and taught their daughter how to play guitar as well as played some Manchala and other shit like listen to A7X. I left and came home. I was here for about an hour and Jenna couldn't stand being in the house anymore. So I offered to pay for her ticket to the movies and we went to see The Day After Tomorrow. It was really funny because I had a couple things of change in my pocket so I kept on handing her pennies and quarters, shit like that.And she'd be like "Ughh..." and just put them in her pocket. I did it through the whole movie. It was an alright flick, kinda cheesey but still kinda intense and good. *shrugs*. So now I'm home after having another evening with Dan and Jenna and just sitting here updating on my life so you people know that basically since I've been out of school, all I've done is get plastered and eh play guitar. Sounds good to me. I'ma now start studying for my permit and shit so I can drive and get a job. So finally I can get my peircings and tats and basically I'll be able to so that now and I'm rather happy about that. So, Rock on dudes, I'll see you next update. Be Excellent To Eachother.
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| Ballad of Somber Angels |
[Jun. 24th, 2004|02:41 pm] |
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So I really don't remember when I last updated, I think it was when I was bitching about stupid things and talking about the concert. This weekend was alright, I burnt cd's for Rj all friggen Friday night and then I played RO with sean for a while. It was rather fun except for the fact that I can't question on my own being I'm a poor bitch and Sean's got all this nice gear so I have to kinda wait for him to come around because people on that game don't like to friggen team up a lot of the times. So then on Saturday I was supposed to go and get my permit/liscence but my parents had people comming to the house like the Sears guy to fix our fridge. Some poor bastard broke the restrictor bar on the ice so it doesn't know when to stop making the ice and then friggen when you pull out the drawer there's just mounds and mounds of ice in the fridge it's friggen crazy ,but at least we now have plenty of cold drinks to quench our thrist. Then some dude had to come over to do the stucko on the wall so I Was just like "Whatever, I guess we're not going today". So instead Kelly was working and Sean came over, we went to a pool bar place and eat some nachos, drank some soda and played pool all day. Played some crappy friggen game called Deer Hunter, wouldn't be so bad except for the fact that it's like $2 to play and an additional $1 for each next level, it's rather crappy, and the aimer was off. Unless those damn deers are like friggen robots or something, but they were hard as fucking hell to kill. So then we left after a while, the waitresses there are rather ugly, except for like the littlest one that worked there, but even she was just alright. So then I went home and played guitar since I haven't for a while and watched Head Bangers ball, but since I missed most of it I'ma have to stay up late tonight and watch all that shit over. Only friggen thing is Slipknot is hosting... I really wanna see some of the awsome people host the show, like I know a long time ago I missed Dimmu Bogir and I did get to see the one where Arch Enemy hosted, that was friggen awsome. Sunday was just this thing at The Chandler Center for the ARts. It was a Bacceloriate celebration or something, like a 30 min church for seniors to bless over the class of 2004. It was rather crappy but we did get to go eat out that night which is fun because I like to dine out. We ate the Elephant Bar, was kinda cool I guess, They didn't serve Dr. Pepper there so I was upset, nothing like good ol' Bj's at the mall. That was fun when me and Rj went, I wanna go back there, turned out to be some good food. So yeah, this post is gonna be kinda short but you know... ohh well, deal with it. |
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| Scyle's of the Brujah |
[Jun. 20th, 2004|10:37 pm] |
So last night was yet another concert. Evergrey was awsome even though they friggen always make the first bands sound bad for some reason. Never the less, they kicked so much ass. Then it was time for children of Bodom, it was so awsome. They always give a good show, but I mean, they're part of the "Swedish" scene, never expect less. They played "Angels Don't Kill" and some other good shit, I know the songs just I was busy with crowd controll the rest of the time. The whole place just exploded when those bastards came out to play, friggen amazing. Iced Earth was good, except for the god damn fat ass poser ass old people who think they're tough shit with their short stubby asses and huge beer bellys trying to relive their old days like Axel Rose. But anyways, some of their shit was good, but after a while it just got tiring, they kinda dragged on after a while, they should have played first and let Bodom have the show, it was much better. So yeah today was alright I guess.. Government sucked my nut sack like usual, Mr. Spears is just annoying as all hell and doesn't do shit except tell us what we don't know and that we better know it by next class becuase apparently while he was jerking around with the other coaches or talking online, wtf ever he does on that lil computer, we weren't doing our job by learning the material ourselves. Lunch was alright, except for these stupid mexican bithces that keep on bothering one of these chicks behind us, was rather gay if you ask me. Quote of the day - "I would have killed that cracker if I wasn't on Parole" Hmm...now that was something intelligent comming from a Sophomore, that friggen beaner has a great life ahead of her. English was great, never laugehd so hard in my life, Ives and I just kinda bullshited the whole thing and made stupid jokes, and taught him stupid catch phrases like "Where's the Beef" and other stupid things. He was kinda flirting with Tessa, she liked it at first but I think after the 90th time he poked her in the back she got tired of it. Got my year book today as well, was kinda shitty to find I'm only in the senior section and the rest of the book I'm just a blur in the friggen guitar club, and on Dan's side. I mean, I really don't mind all that much, but then I saw that fucking fagget and his friends from the guitar club got the 4 main slots for the "Happening people" in the club or whatever. Yeah, they're really happening, they stand around al day being jack asses and fucking screwed up the club this year. It seriously was the biggest waiste of time in my life, but it's better than sitting in Mr. Spears class for longer than I must. But we had so many plans for that club and this dude didn't accomplish anything, he's just a fucking fool. Screw that Arron bastard and David Ludlow, worst guitarst at Hamilton. So many people in that yearbook got pictured with their guitars and they don't do shit with them. It's so trendy now it's like a joke. So I came home today, I was rather tired from last night, and I guess you gathered that already by how depressive I am right now for some reason. Perhaps it's beucase I'm tired of my parents, or the stupid shit that goes on during school with the ego's of all these idiot preppy bastards that roam the hallway. Ohh well, the last series of entrys have been all happy and shit, so I am entitled to 1 bitch session on here, so sit there and listen...bastard. :-D ...So yeah, I guess it's time to go back into my room and play guitar since I saw In Flames, childre of Bodom and Evergrey, and figured...wow they just kicked my ass on so many levels it's not even funny. So I have a lot of work to do. Sides.. I'm getting tired of being outhere wiht the family. Later.
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| Lullaby for the Mortified |
[Jun. 17th, 2004|11:12 pm] |
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So last night was the all-mighty In Flames concert. In Flames, god, there is nothing in this life more inspiring, nothing more satisfying than seeing them play live or just listening to them on CD. Every Swedish band that I have seen live is soooo amazing, you can't help but feel a certan level of solace. Hopefully one day I will obtain the level of guitar playing that they do, to master the craft of guitar and be able to make such incredible riffs that just scream of perfection and masterful movements that can only be obtained by years of practice, which I have been trying to do. As I Lay Dying wasn't all that great live, I mean, they were but, the bass was way too high so all the reveberations muffled their actual guitars. Then KillSwitch Engaged was alright I guess, they kinda sucked, I'm really not a fan of their crap, but In Flames, jesus christ almighty...wow, the wait for them was well worth it. Dan and Jenna went with me to the concert. I felt really bad for Jenna because first off she is just so tiny that I reminded myself not to make her go into the mosh pit, so I was like "I have to make sure she doesn't get hurt." So I wanted to take her all the way to the front so that when it was time, she could see Anders up close and personal. But the hardcore fans of the first two "American Bands of Hatred" fucked it all to hell and back. I really hate the fact that those hardcore bastards have to swing their arms and legs, that's not moshing, there is a difference, I swear to God, when they all started doing that shit, and I had to get Jenna out of that shit, I was so pissed off and scared for her. She even asked me to protect her, but there's no way I could move a friggen 6'5 guy that weighs like 300lbs of blobery or solid mass, it was just very difficult, eventually we figured something out so she wouldn't be so scared and crowded by those friggen bastards, but... man, I saw the bruises she had on her arms from those sons of bitches and it just pissed me off. But then I felt pissed off at myself because I was like "I hate those bitches who take those girls into the mosh pits and the girls get hurt" and what do I do? Take her right into the center, was partly my fault, partly the fact that you never know where the mosh is to take place, but at least I got her out of there long enough for her to enjoy the music. Last night Dan and Jenna were talking about her boyfriends and how in the past they have been nothing but loosers and stuff. I asked Jenna why her boyfriend didn't come last night, she said becuase he spends his money on other things. Dan doesn't find it suitable, but she says he treats her nice. To a point I could understand but what I don't understand is why she would put herself through that, I don't know the whole story so it's not my place to say, as long as he treats her good, that's good enough for me, I just don't want him to hurt her like the past cocks have. I know in my mind I could take care of her, I don't know if it would be what she wants, but at least I'd be faithful and with all my power try not to hurt her and make her happy. She put her head on me a couple of times last night, on my shoulder, telling me I smelled good and stuff. I think it was more she was tired,but I still enjoyed it. I really wanted to put my arm around her and hold her close but, I didn't becuase that would have been fucked up to do, while she's got a boyfriend and such. I did put my head against hers a couple of times though, was a good feeling. But enough about that, I don't wanna piss anyone off or have her read this and be like "Errm, looser." But yeah, I got a shirt from the concert last night so I wore it to school today. Has these heads within heads listening to headphones and this big ass moon on the side, and a moon on the arm sleeve with concert dates on the back, it's friggen awsome. I must be going now, moms bitching about helping her clean something or whatever, and I guess it's too late for an 18 year old growing boy to stay up any later than friggen 12...whatever. Night Folks. |
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| Remembrals |
[Jun. 15th, 2004|01:33 am] |
So tonight was Friday, of course the biggest night of events take place this eve. So we shall first start with the boring and then get into the joyous events of the twilight. Once I got to school Liz came up and showed me her tongue ring that she had gotten the other day, again, so that I would remember that she got it. I guess her and Ashley peirced their own tongues and now they're like...matching twins or something, I wouldn't do that shit myself, specially with the tongue. Watch I bet you any money they hit an artery and next week, they're gonna find they have some disease or something. Naw, lol, that was over shot, just messing. So then Chris, Rj, Bianca, Mike, myself and Drew all hung out in the hallway while the assembly was going. Michaela just happened to walk by and they all started going "Go and talk to her!" which, I mean, I would have but she's not to the point yet where I could just waltz up and talk to her as though we've been old souls for years, if ya know what I mean. Then we went to class and Dan was kinda depressed, I didn't know what was going on until all the later in 6th period, but how was I to know? Caps and gowns were called out then after the first period, so I missed most of my second period class, again Michaela was in the picture and friggen Chris and rj were like "Go and talk to her". But WTF am I supposed to do? "Hey beautiful, you know, I've been crushing on you for a while now, so I Was wondering since you're having tough times with your personal life and tough times with your ex, would you like to go to a movie this weekend, and maybe make a future with me?" Yeah, that will be real smoothe! But whatever, someway some how, it might work out, who knows.
So yeah, then in guitar I just basically hung out with Adam all that time, I always hangout with dan, chris, Mike, Dan, James and whoever else comes and bums the company from us. So we all just kinda sat in the hallway and today since everything was so fucking funny and fun, that I wanted to go and have some laughs. So when chicks would walk out of their class I'd like make a kissing noise like they were hot or something, and whistle or whatever. Just to be a normal cock, I've never done that before so, I figured what the hell...not too much longer until I'm out of here. It was kinda fun, they watched me play guitar until Chris tried to upshow me, so we BATTLED...quietly in our minds. Then they started playing cards so I just relaxed with the Cd player and then they threw them around, so I joined in on that shit. The bell rang so I headed to the library to hang out with Jen and Mandie until the time came to go home.
Well, Rj had wanted to go to the movies now for like a week, just to see Troy and we were gonna try and persuade some hot chicks to come with us to the mall, but none of Rj's so called "Hoes" wanted to come with him, so I had to go. It was kinda cool. At first we were pissed off because of the fact the bitch at the front lanes wouldn't let us in without proper ID, even though no one else ever gives us shit when we go there, do you think those small, prepubescent kids could grow a nice goatee like this, or even phathom the thought of facial hair, yeah exactly....whore. Rj and I both had money so it was time to eat dinner. The best place I have eaten at yet, since the Chipotle restraunt was BJ's, that was some good friggen food. I guess RJ liked it a lot becuase he was like, humping the damn table just to get to the waitress behind us. There was a ton of hot chicks in there, ones I couldn't touch, but they still stared. Colie told me I've very scary and that she was scared of me when she first saw me so, maybe that it was they were thinking too, I really don't know. We talked to Colie outside of the BJ's Brewery for a long while. It was rather fun, I was glad she stopped and talked to us instead of running around crazy like the last time, not understadning the fact that I was ON THE PHONE!...but that's okay. Her friend was there with her, remembered her from guitar class, they're both pretty nice chicks, rj got a kick out of Colie's loud ass. So then we came out and were checking out chicks like the usual but we found Ievs instead, the Brasilian forgein exchange student, he was friggen funny. It was cool to see him out of the norm and what he's like outside of class. but right now it's kinda late and i haven't had much sleep, i'm like going cross eyed, i'll finish my stories, whever I was later, lol. Good night people.
~Elicard~ |
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| Diablous Trellum Cruento |
[May. 29th, 2004|01:22 am] |
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So tonight was cool. I got to hang out with my friends and shit, kinda sit in front of Weazel's house forever and just watch Steve talk about whatever, while mike cuddled and I stayed around to be written on in perminent Sharpie marker. Which by the way my parents were like "OOHHH!" so whatever, that will teach me *Coughs*. ANYWAYS! So yeah, then we headed out to Wendy's, home of the BIG BOOTY BURGER. Whatever, but we did go to Safeway even looking the way I did in all this marker and bought ourselves a 12 pack case of friggen good ass Dr. Pepper, even though mike doesn't like it..pssh, Irish people. o.O! ANYWAYS! So yeah it's good, ate my hamburger and shit, now I'm sitting here wondering when my next night out will be hehe. Tomorrow, or in a couple of hours, depending on how you people look at things I am gonna go and practice with my band to see what kinda music we can come up with for the projects and ideas they have been working on. Basically I'm just playing what they wrote, see if we can make it work and eventually, HOPEFULLY, we'll just get to the point where we know our sound and just wanna Jam. Steve said something about making music when he gets out of the Services so, that will be cool. But yeah, I don't know what more to write. I think I'ma just sit here and....zone out for a while, then hope in the shower and try to get this marker off. And then who knows, perhaps go to bed and crash, get to dan's by 12..or 1 whatever. As long as we have enough time to jam and shit. Peace metal buddies. |
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| Eternal Disolution |
[May. 13th, 2004|08:17 pm] |
Hello fellow chuckers. Yeah, so I haven't updated for a while, I guess it was since mothers day. Monday I ditched school becuase of course it was Senior ditch day, and even this looser ass metal head needed a break from all the bullshit life of school and people's crap that you deal with daily. Mike, Steve-o and I went to the mall, supposedly there was a Karate mart trip in between there but they moved out, so we just went to Hot Topic and finally got Mike some suitable clothes so he woudln't feel left out of being a metal dude. Hopefully soon I'll be able to collect the money I need to start working out with him on a daily basis or whenever he invites me, but it would probably be a good idea to get my god damn permit so I wouldn't have to rely on him to drive me everwhere. So then he dropped me off back at home, instead of going with him to Kempo, I'm really interested in seeing it, but I kinda dread going there because I'm not as physically fit as most of the dudes that go there, and like, i don't wanna make an ass out of myself becuase I'm not the A type model of what should be in there. I mean, I wanna learn and all, but my body is just not ready for that shit yet. So I always turn Mike down when he invites me and all, but one day I'll go.
Tuesday was really great. Sean and his family took me out to dinner at the olive Garden, was a good time, great food, I haven't been there before, not to my reckolection anyways, but the food was awsome. Then it was time for Circus Du Soule, that was the most incredible, most awe inspiring thing I have seen in my life. There was like no words to describe how beautiful, how funny, how interesting the things those people do, and that they put into the show. If anyone reads this journal, and gets the chance to go to that while it's in town sometime during their life, friggen go. They told me the show is better in Vegas, but if it's better than that show I saw, I'm probably gonna never leave. The contortionist in that show was beautiful, she wore like this skin tight spandex that was like a see through white, and diamonds all over the suit, and then she had her hair up with diamons in rows all over, she was just beautiful in like so many ways, perfect body, graceful, hot as hell, you name it. I got home about 1:30 in the morning, was a long ass show, but it was worth the time spent there, except for all the old ladies who don't understand that age hits some people hard, so you can't cover it up by wearing skirts that your grand daughter does, It just doesn't work that way, AT ALL!!! Yeesh! I had to play for the class the other day, my English teachers thought I was awsome, and the kids in my class have been talking about me as of late. The chicks think I'm amazing and the dudes found my performance to be one of the best, everyone who got up was like "Well, after that I don't know what I can do to catch your attention" and this really hot chick Michaela was all "Well, I was gonna play guitar but after that, I really don't think I would have wanted to." I felt kinda bad because I had to discourage people when they are trying to play the same craft that I do, but, I'm always open to teach people and let them learn.
Wednesday I was kinda feeling sick that day....
I really don't know why, I just woke up and I felt like shit. Perhaps it was because of the fact that I've only had 4 hours of sleep in the last couple of days, even my guitar teacher Kelly was like "Dude.. what the hell have you been through?" Lol. But ohh well. I've been kinda depressed lately, it's kinda tough to go through life without having a chick that will love ya, I mean, there are some girls I surely know Icould go out with but the fact is, it wouldn't be genuine. It would just be temporary and it would just be to get some ass, but that's not what I want so I skipped out on that offer. As of just recently, this chick Michaela in my English class has started talking to me and stuff. I always thought she was beautiful and everything, but I mean, there are so many beautiful chicks at our school (And ugly ones) that it's just kind of a shrug off, because you know you can't touch um. But, the other day when she was giving her presentation after I got done playing guitar, she had started talking to me a couple days before and I have started to develope a friendship with her and her friends, so after my performance she started talking to me a bit more, was interesting to actually have a conversation with her, and stare into her eyes. What really got my attention was that the other day she was having problems with her boyfriend and she started crying when she was speaking about him during the presenation, because he had to be in there, her life is music and she hangs out with that band, he just so happens to be the drummer, so its not like she could skip around him. But her eyese were so soft and she was staring at me the whole time she was talking, and crying too, her eyes kinda swelled up. But, I just felt bad for her, and I just stared back and that's when I just kinda realized I liked her a lot more than I had first. I learned a bit about her that day, that she was a very developed Christian, which I don't have a problem with, I'm not the first to branch off into religion, but ya know, she's very genuine and I'd rather have someone who's kind of heart and wants more out of life, than someone I could just end up in the sack with a couple nights when I feel the tingling. So, perhaps I will try and work something out, I know if I ever want anything though, that I'ma have to change my body and make it worht it's while, make it look like I actually respect myself more than I hardly do as of now. So, we shall see what comes to pass....
The weekend is almost here, today was boring as usual but nothing really happened all that great except now in English class I'm not so quiet and people actually wanna hear what I have to say on things and they include me in their conversations, not like before when I would sit there like a child outside in the rain, looking in through the window at the family I wish I could have, ya know. I know I really hate school and all, but there are some times I wish I could just freeze things and be like "I want this life, I want to be with this chick, I want this" but it never happens. i do a lot of thinking during the course of one day, perhaps that is why I am so quiet, but ohh well, some things are better kept secret *shrugs*. So yeah, I hope I gave you more of an insite on what's going on in my life, some people are curious for some reason, and you all know I don't talk that much unless it's about funny random shit like usual. So if this is how you get to know me better and who I am, so be it. But, here it is, plain and simple, do with it what you will..
~Elicard~ |
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| Seraphim |
[May. 9th, 2004|06:57 pm] |
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Today was Mother's Day. The family decided to take Nick's parent's invitation to the Grandfathers for a Bar-B-Q. So of course I had to wake up early on a Sunday like usual but this time it had promise. I didn't have to wake up for church and I just got to sit in the car all day and listen to music. So when we got there the grandpa's lil Jack Russle Terrior came and properly attacked us with his licking and friendly barking. That lil dog is friggen crazy man, he like skids on the rocks and just jumps all over you. When you grab his tugs-o-war toys you can litteraly pull him up and lift him into the air, start to spin, and the dog will stay on there just going in circles. So we went inside and saw my friends family all there happy that we had made it. Nick and I just went into the front room (Living Room) and watched some movies for a while. Caddy Shack and Star Wars II was on, two very good and classic movies of course. After that lunch was served with a catering of Ribs, hamburgers, salads, deviled eggs, and drink of course. Then it got boring becuase Arizona is so God damn hot that there was nothing to do outside except swim and I forgot the trunks so it was to the computer room for funny websites and to hang out inside the office room. Then it was time to go home. That house is incredible, you wouldn't think it would have that many nice things inside of it from the outside, but then again the outside is just as awsome as the in, so who knows *Shrugs*, way out in the middle of the desert and an incredible house, what more could ya ask for? So yeah then we came home and now I jumped onto the computer, I already got bored, I wanted to jam out but everyone's tired and everything so I have to wait until they're a lil more comfortable at home. Then I will totally break their wills and cause the mercilous havoc that I can unleash upon them with my so called "Devil Music". What's really funny today was that I wore my dimmu Borgir shirt with all the pengtagrams, and nick's grandfather used to be a Preist, so it was kinda awkward talking to him at times, becuase then his eyes would dart down and look me over a bit. Ohhh well, somewhere out there someone thinks pentagrams and darkness are sexy....somewhere. But yeah, It's really funny becuase Jen thinks she can outtype me in this journal program but this only took me about 5 mins to type up, and that was going slow and making sure everything was neat and percises, she easily forgets that I used to Role play and could take about 50 different paragraphs to explain a single blade of grass with all my past experiences, so we shall see who out types who making longer posts....MWAHAHAHAH, foolish mortal. *Coughs* But getting back to the life at hand. Tomrrow is Senior Ditch day, I really don't know what I'ma do, perhaps I will have mike come back over and Box me a couple of rounds and we can hang out, you know because he ditched us on Friday, but you knwo...WHATEVER! Been listening to a lot of In Flames lately getting ready for the concert. I have to go to that Circus Olay with Sean on Tuesday and then sometime during this week, I think it's wednesday or something, I go to this school movie with Mike. So it looks like an exciting week for me.. *JOYOUS DAY!!* But anyways, I best be going, I don't wanna put Jenny to Shame yet, one day I'll just be like "You know what Bitch" and she'll be crying, because my paragraphs are gonna just barely best her each day and then when she least expects it, WHAM SUCKA, it's over for her and it's gonna be like 5 friggen pages of posting! LOL, but until then, time for some guitar and videogames, and the search for a girlfriend if I ever manage to get one of those....heh, with lots of luck!
~Elicard~ |
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| Hallow's Eve |
[May. 8th, 2004|10:32 pm] |
Hello again my friends. Basically I sat at home all day. Last night we went and saw Van Helsing with Rj, Dan, and chris. Mike was supposed to meet us there with all his cousins and friends but the movie sold out and the bitch who runs the place was asking us not to save seats anymore. We felt like pushing that cow down the theatre isle. After that Chris's father took us home, Dan's parents didn't answer their phone so he ended up spending the night over here with Rj. Rj's so weird, he didn't sleep at all last night, he stayed up the full night playing Diablo, so he woke me up before he left and that was about 9A.m, EARLIEST I'VE WOKE UP ON A SATURDAY...EVER! But that's okay, I went back to sleep and dreamed of the hot chicks I can't touch. Sometimes I feel I like too many chicks at our school and all, but ya know it's not like I talk to any of them AT ALL, so it's not all that bad, I just have a big wish list. So yeah, today was filled of bordom and booze. Stayed home playing Ragnarok Online for the remainder of the day, then I had to make my own dinner since everyone else went out. But it was cool, had some real meat and watched a Dragon Ball Z movie, the one with Bardok, totally awsome, hadn't seen it before. Then I started playing guitar until my mother came in and interupted me, speaking of which, I should go and turn off my amp before my father yells at me...ohh well. And yeah Jen I'm sorry I didn't update, just it didn't cross my mind until you yelled at me right now on your journal, but you'll have something to read for tomorrow. Besides who updates in the morning, ya need some events to fill the voids! So yeah, here I sit not going to Prom and one of my sisters friends, one of the hot chicks from my *coughs*Sewing Class*Coughs* told me that if I would have asked her to Prom that she would have gone with me. I about fell out of my chair, but ya know, how was I to know? Ohh well, it's not like I would have danced anyways, sides there's always the Goth club, that's prom enough for me. But yeah, I'm going through withdrawls without my music and videogames, so I best be going. I have to make up a song for my senior project here pretty soon, being it's due tuesday. So I better whip something up quick, along with all the writting assignments I haven't done yet. So that I pass the friggen class. Ohh well folks, see ya in hell.
~Elicard~ |
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| Requiem |
[May. 7th, 2004|02:44 pm] |
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Apparently I am new at this whole crap... Jen made me start up a journal since she is infatuated with my life. So tonight is Friday, of course this looser has nothing to do, but I will find something. Like go to the movies and see Van Helsing, or drinking with my friends like usual. I really don't know what to put into this journal other than hot chicks, new cds or songs I like, or something stupid like "I own you, Bitch!" I'll be going to the In Flames, Evergrey and Arch Enemy concerts here pretty soon. 16th, 19th and the 21st. I've been stuck in this new Hypocrisy cd, The Arrival, I'm learning the song Dead Sky Dawning. It's rather fast but it's gonna be cool. So yeah, supposedly me and Mike are gonna box again, I just think he's scared since I started lifting more, that he will have to fold to my ultimate powers! Naw, pretty soon we'll be boxing in my backyard again and one day I will be strong enough to beat him like it should be! But until then friends, I must be going.
~In Metal We Trust~ Elicard |
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